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October 2007
Faithful Lover
The moon came to me last night
With a sweet question.
She said,
“The sun has been my faithful lover
For millions of years.
Whenever I offer my body to him
Brilliant light pours from his heart.
Thousands then notice my happiness
And delight in pointing
Toward my beauty.
Hafiz, is it true that our destiny
Is to turn into Light
Itself?”
And I replied,
Dear moon,
Now that your love is maturing,
We need to sit together
Close like this more often
So I might instruct you
How to become
Who you are!
Hafiz
When a teacher comes into our life, do we
recognize the significance of the opportunity? Do we really see? Do
we really listen? Do we get the lesson? Sometimes, the teacher comes
in disguise, with a floppy hat and matching purse, with humor,
clarity and seriousness all presented in an obscure setting of a
family living room. For some, she is a familiar figure for others
not, but quickly the room comes into harmony and everyone is
listening. Did you see that? Did you notice how the room was held?
Did you feel the effect of one individual’s presence bringing a
whole room into alignment?
Each one of us is capable of creating
extraordinary shifts in our worlds, we are powerful creators and that
act of creation begins with self-awareness.
The tools for self awareness are many. The
beauty of the tuning forks is that they put into our hands, a vehicle
for that awareness. The question becomes how will I use it?
I’ve been using the tuning forks daily for about 6 months and I
am now just getting to understand the way they work to connect me to
my physical body. I can feel the sensations of clearing as physical
sensations. I pay very close attention, not doing anything but
listening to me, to my body. When I ‘got’ it, what I got
was the sensation of all the cells in my body pulsing with life, like
a whole body orgasm. I was stunned. This, this is what Triz meant
when she said we can live in bliss. This 53 year old body can feel
that alive, healthy and literally vibrating with life and I hold the
tools for that shift in my own hands. How awesome is that? It also
carries a great responsibility. I am responsible for myself and that
responsibility requires a diligence on my part, to be self-aware.
I’ve committed to the art of practice and observation. What am I
doing? What am I thinking? How do I feel? I have committed to
noticing when my energy shifts and not to accept feeling anything
less then excellent.
So as I practiced this new form of self
awareness, I noticed that my work changed. I was suddenly in a
different place of processing and receiving information. I was in a
place of emptiness and my mind struggled to fill the space with
stories and language. I entered a transition space and in that place
all my clients fell away. I looked at that wondering if my concept of
myself as a ‘healer’ is being redefined and I believe that
it is but what does that look like, what does that mean? What does
‘healer’ a word that I’ve never been comfortable with
really mean?
I came back to the question, who am I? What
I’ve noticed is that each time, I use the tuning forks, I become
clearer within myself. Physically that means that I am learning to
identify long held energetic patterns and notice within myself where
I get stuck, where I get hung up. That level of self awareness
extends to the other levels of my being. We all know about the
mind/body/spirit connection. What the tuning forks have given me is a
way to physically access and register that barometer within me.
It’s like have a constant, accessible internal gauge of well-being.
Triz brought enough sets of forks for
those who had pre-ordered as well as a few extra sets. We had
additional people come and I gave my set away to be used. That meant
that when the group was learning, I had nothing in my hands. I
decided to see if I could tune myself as the group went through the
initial exercise of learning. What I experienced was astounding. With
each vibration of the forks, I was registering the vibration within
my own body. I felt myself shifting just as I do when I have the
forks in my own hands. This is really amazing information and leading
me into a deeper exploration of what it means to work with energy,
what it means to be a ‘healer’.
The tuning forks work on the subtle
energy body, that energy is a vibration which resonates. In our
shared space we resonate and are shifted by that resonance so that
when we are in the presence of clarity, we become more clear, when we
are in the presence of love, we become more loving, when we are in
the presence of someone who is present, we become more present but
it’s subtle, so smooth that we may miss it, or attribute the
shift to something else like, the ultimate brownie, or group
dynamics. Brownies and the group are factors certainly but
there’s an underlying sympathetic resonance that is created when
something profound is being transmitted. The more profound the
teacher, the more profound the teachings and what is more profound
than the gift of self awareness?
On Tuesday I went through a physical shift,
a purge of old physical patterns that brought me into my body in a
painful way. Triz called and when I told her how I felt, which was
not good, she laughed and said you’re releasing, reminding me
that each time I shift into a different level of being, my physical
body has to release the old patterns too. So I allowed my body a time
to heal and when I woke up on Wednesday, I was in a different place.
I am becoming self aware and that is a fundamental building block of
self-love and self-love is the vehicle for a shift in consciousness.
A master, a teacher, a much loved and
honored, friend, Triz has come into my life and given me a great
gift, the tools to discover who I am. As I become more self-aware, I
heal. As I heal, I become whole. As I become whole, I become a
healing presence in the world. This is the priceless gift of the
individual to the whole. Each and everyone of you are part of
that process and I thank you, deeply and with gratitude, for your
presence in this school of my life. |
